光。

“The eye is the lamp of the body, If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light" - Matthew 6:22 CSB

Now my writings are never religious or spiritual life based, However, the Bible provides insight into life and a lot of wisdom.

It's 9:55, February 13, 2020.

I read this part of the Bible this morning and it stayed with me all day, it will probably be with me much longer than that.

Tonight I found myself feeling dissatisfied, like everything I've been learning to a degree becomes an ineffective waste of time and this mainly stems from this level of difficulty I've found in breaking out of my comfort zone in a particular task I really really want to carry out.

This is talking to people, meeting new people, creating new connections and Probably setting up something more, this only applies with women by the way and the real task is doing this...... In person.

You see, that's Random, but to Adeolu Michael, that Random task is a test and a yardstick for measuring my confidence in myself, Now I'm very confident in an Academic, Business setting and I'm generally very confident but this is another level for me because that would mean surpassing my fear of being ignored or acting a fool plus me succeeding in building something would skyrocket my confidence to another level entirely. The upside of me doing this is tremendous because confidence in talking to Random new people also builds on Marketing and Negotiation skills which I will be needing in 5 days.

So you see this is a really big deal for me and I have consistently failed at this stuff, seeing girls that I absolutely want to tell they're gorgeous or I love their hair or something but never getting round to actually saying the words, this cowardice takes a real toll on my mental balance because I know who I am, I'm beyond this.

This got me rolling in a string of thoughts that made me really sad thinking about an opportunity that had just opened up for a certain project I'm working on and the success of this project depends on my ability to get past this.

I'm not backing out or looking for another route, I'm definitely gonna have to go get that opportunity, a date has even been set and success depends on my ability to sell it and Confidence to negotiate firmly, in other words, my ability to overcome the fear of "Nigerian girls" that has no downside to failing.

These thoughts led me to feeling lonely and sad before leading me to this post

"All men and all things are not equal" - Pastor Tunde Bakare

I watched to a series of teachings by Pastor Bakare titled "All men and all things are not equal" and after reading Matthew 6:22, and looking at the picture I used for this Post, I received inspiration as thus; We're all stars in our own way, but even amongst stars there's a difference, some shine brighter and more brilliantly than others.

This led me to two very different conclusions and that why I had a hard time putting it on my status and had to write

Firstly, The picture shows a constellation of stars in the night sky and focuses on a trail blazing shooting star beaming through the sky. Leading up to my first point, There are a lot of stars out there that all shine differently but yet stay still in the night sky and there are those who blaze trails, The shooting stars. The summary is this, A lot of people succeed, Very few people blaze trails that push Mankind, Society, Community, Generations towards Evolution from one stage to another. Success is measured according to happiness and as such is a very vague measure of impact. That is why stars shine very differently, your level of success that will be sufficient for you to retire or "stay still" could be reached by following the laws governing that success. However, Trail Blazing (Impact) can only be attained through alignment with one’s true Purpose.

And so although there is a whole constellation of stars at each point in time of human society, There who those who create the path of greatness for the next constellation by the trails they blaze. Those who walk so others can fly.

Now to my second point, the Bible says we are the light of the world, personally I’ve always sort of felt Men could be compared in stature and Wisdom and the likes in terms of the varying yardsticks for light intensity.

Candles, Torches, Lamps, Moons, Stars.

All of which can be further broken down.

The school anthem of the place I do my teaching practice starts with "Knowledge is light".

I guess what I'm trying to say is, if you don't improve yourself in alignment to your sense of success or passion or purpose your intensity doesn't develop and then you begin to complain about some shit that's outside your control instead of putting in the work and crushing it.

Life is short, I would suggest using your most important asset, Time, in the wisest way possible and with the biggest upside. If the upside of what you're doing doesn't match the image of your standards, you shouldn't be doing it.

Keyword is "YOUR STANDARDS" measured according to who you see yourself as.

The Title of this post "光" is the Japanese Kanji for light aka "Hikari".